it was a few hours before they announced it otherwise i would have thought it was for the pope 1000%

i live in a very densely populated suburb and i don’t believe i’ve heard any in previous years either so i honestly think it was just a conservative 'Murica Hell Yeah thing. or for 420. or honestly could be both

one of the therapists i saw this year mentioned their faith to me in the middle of a session (without any indication of it on their website or any time before) in an attempt to provide comfort with something i was dealing with and i immediately noped out lol. it’s surprisingly hard to find a therapist in my area that’s not christian counseling or otherwise faith-based. only vaguely related, but i once came across a page for a therapist who was only accepting new clients with family in/ties to israel

from the general vibes/light conversations about events i’ve had with them, all the therapists ive had in the past generally skewed liberal at worst with social/political issues. definitely not on the hard left, but not “wahh-illegals-in-my-country” xenophobic fascist aligned either, so hearing something like this was a first for me. it shocked me that someone in that line of work could have such a lack of empathy for other human beings. i’m just glad i know about it now so i can see someone else and not waste my time.

i see a psychiatrist for medication management once a month but i find more frequent talks with a therapist helpful too, but this definitely was a last-session convo and i don’t plan on going back to this therapist at all lol. thank you for the link to ndtherapists, i already went through the list for my area and plan on reaching out to someone new from there so hopefully it works out !! i agree with your sentiment about the paywalls. i am incredibly thankful to be on a “good” insurance right now that makes things manageable and accessible but i previously had issues with insurance in the past for non-psychiatric matters and it was kind of a nightmare.

i havent used any substance i have issues with since january! having a bit of a tough time in regards to mental health but i am proud of myself for not slipping back into old habits. trying to keep it up.

i think right now my goal is to consistently get outside more often. the weather is getting nicer so it’s a good excuse. i have chronic pain issues so it won’t be anything too crazy like a 10 mile hike but i went for two short walks in the past week and it was sort of meditative and calming in a way.

would like to be added to the roll call!

sableye is literally me i love to eat rocks and skitter around in dark caves

agreed i tried it once and it was not that good or worth it at all. i could make better salads at home for probably 1/3 the cost. i guess convenience is what draws people to it?

listen to imaginal disk by magdalena bay then come back

any sort of pressure on the abdomen helps me ! i will either passively have my heavy 200lb stupid gamer laptop on me (the heat helps too lol) or if i have the means i’ll actually massage my abdomen, i think it helps improve blood flow or something? it helps!

i know this sounds insane but my solution for cramps is to lie down with heavy things on my stomach. i swear it moves things along

oh getting zapped is definitely not fun that’s happened to me before too but i think i got genuinely electrocuted lmfao. was ordered to plug in my laptop to the end of a chain of (edit: a little over 10) surge protectors (i know.) if you’ve ever felt the feeling of one of those electric gum pranks it was kind of like that but way more…intense? felt it all the way up to my shoulder for a few seconds before i managed to break away.

i was mildly electrocuted in high school via the suggestion of a teacher to do something a little dangerous (very weird story) and it felt weird but i ended up fine and i was told explicitly not to go to the nurse. totally not sketchy at all

i’m not sure! i’m still figuring things out on my end, it could be that but i’m feeling a euphoric way about both changing my gender expression and labeling myself differently. i didn’t feel that way when i first thought i was agender, i only felt apathetic. im also drawn to a name change from my severely feminine name to something less so, but that was a long time coming lol.

I have a friend who is in their early 20s and only started nursing work a little over a year ago and they are frequently appointed as the charge nurse. i don’t work in that field so i don’t know how things really work but it seems like a widespread thing

do you accept donations? i don’t want mine anymore

i’ve sort of been realizing that i’m not exactly agender. i’ve been presenting as my AGAB and it feels a little miserable and like a performance and im starting to feel like id be much happier presenting with more of a masculine lean than feminine.

The Origin of My Depression by Uboa. Do be warned that it is a bit abrasive with depressing themes if that’s not your thing!

project coconut begins (video might be loud)