She/They

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Cake day: June 30th, 2023

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  • I absolutely hate it when my language center segfaults and I feel like I have aphasia. I will go through periods where it happens a concerning amount, and then back to a sprinkle of dysfunction. Forgetting simple words or names of people you have known for years is unsettling. I sometimes get really scared and panic if it happens a lot. Trying to explain to your coworkers on a conference call that your brain isn’t functioning correctly isn’t the most comfortable experience.











  • I deal with this constantly. Profilers are your friend. I keep begging my team to use the database dumps from production to test with, but nope. Don’t feel bad about messing up though. The amount of fuck ups I deal with in prod is exasperating. At least most of the things I break is a quick 5 minute fix and not weeks of rework.

    The hardest thing I have explaining to the team is the concept of time. Once you have done controls programming and get to witness how much happens in 50-100ms, it sinks in. Your thing takes 500ms? 1 second? They think this is acceptable on something that is dealing with less than 100 database records. 😭





  • I’m sorry. My brain is slow today and this needs to be done while I am fresh. We can go over it tomorrow.

    I am too burnt out today.

    I can’t focus on that right now.

    I am not functional enough for that.

    I don’t even make shit up and I am done with corpo speak. If they can’t accept that, then they can get over it. We can discuss this like humans. If I can get you started, great, but if you want this done right, you will wait.


  • It wasn’t so much a disagreement or me having a thin skin. I felt like they were a net-negative to a place I feel half-ass comfortable saying anything at all. I saw the patterns of behavior they had with others and I got sick of reading that shit in every damn thread. Hearing that they were given a mod position disturbs me. After spending some time with that curated out, I have had a far better experience. Not saying squid is a bad person, but the shit that gets stirred up due to him is exhausting.

    I wish him the best of luck with his health issues, his daughter, and his family.