Have you checked out other types of therapies? Not all therapies are the same and not all medicines are the same!

You might just be missing what works for you! Don’t get discouraged, I have been in therapy for 4 years and only after this time I understood that my therapist doesn’t make it for me anymore!

I have PTSD from childhood trauma and from what I’ve read many therapists focus on other symptoms without actually addressing the core trauma.

Currently changing therapy with a microdosing friendly Gestalt therapist! Just the fact of standing for myself in one of the ugliest times makes me feel so proud.

Whatever you do, don’t stop trying and don’t stop seeking for alternative solutions. Think about how you managed to live with all this pain until now, and how strong you are for that. Most of the others cannot know how much strength is required to deal with such emotions.

Think if one day you will unlock this all, think how many beautiful things you could do with the consciousness of how it feels to actually feel bad!

No I actually prefer GNOME, but have to use KDE because I need specific features (kiosk mode), but yes I feel like Gnome is so much better integrated with its defaults apps!

When Linux phones?

(Actually usable ones)

Crypto - wall street on steroids Bitcoin - an actual alternative to the collapsing monetary economy

That doesn’t take into account privacy coins like monero, which have different purposes, but most crypto is bullshit.

Glad to know xfce has a kiosk mode, I wonder if it’s easier to set up than KDE or GNOME…

UFW definitely and maybe also selinux or apparmor to give internet access only to applications that need access!

I thought about Nix, it is indeed cool to declaratively install stuff and it would indeed be very helpful to set system settings all from one file so that you control everything there, but I don’t think that’s what I need, I think I’d need a more focused desktop environment maybe?

Kiosk environments could be a solution, because once the UI is limited, you can install software in any way you like and from any distro really, I think the focus is to keep it minimal under the hoods and very simple on the surface!

Probably an unpopular opinion but if you want absolute minimalism without ads use Violoncello text browser!

I think one of the problems is actually I’m lacking sugars and I frequently go in hypo, I do plenty of sports and don’t eat anything sweet except for some fruits.

Yesterday I measured glicemy AFTER having had a snack like an hour before and it was 76, which is fine but on an empty stomach, it’s supposed to be >100 after eating…

I will try again when I feel those strong symptoms like some evenings ago when I couldn’t even think clearly and I was feeling like I was almost passing out.

For now it looks like when I’m really really down, I eat something sugary like juice fruit and I feel immediately better.

I think this is definitely playing a role, but got to investigate further and correlate with measurements.

Can you tell me more about your story?

Thank you

My god would love to see all events on pixelfeld instead of Instagram…

Having a federated music platform would be great both for people and for artists!

How is the user experience compared to matrix? Is it easy to gateway towards matrix or other services? Can I easily join matrix or other communities servers?

I see a lot of people are now using matrix but not so many xmpp, but yeah it hoggs resources on my server too. Also I feel like it’s still pretty buggy…

Yes, sorry, not a native English speaker

Didn’t think about the 2 machines thing. But yeah it looks definitely easier than setting a transparent proxy… But I guess all of this has to be on the same network, I cannot use an external server to which I connect to via wan because at that point the connections would be already need to be unproxied going out right?

But can’t your setup be done on the same machine with a firewall?

Yes DNS and pihole were never thought as content filtering tools

I need to block IPs and unauthorized connections that are not http/https as well, I know about DNS filtering but it’s not what I am trying to achieve.

Didn’t know about CENO, it looks super cool! Might have to dig more into TOR as well

Maybe search engines idk, something like Yucy?

Exactly! I don’t see why we have to rely on the old internet infrastructure for a completely differently conceived type of distributing content!

There’s stuff like ipfs, and I’m sure there are many ways to make self hosting easier…

We normalize everyone has a modem/router/access point at home: we should normalize everyone having his own server hosted, bitcoin node, ipfs node etc etc…

And your right, these services have to be super easy to deploy… I think containerization might be helping with this… Think about docker or Nixos… Make a nice GUI and simplify docker even more and you get packages that can run on any distro in any OS, that even a complete noob could spin up! Maybe paired with repos that host most of the self hostable stuff.

But yeah I think the whole structure might be have to be rethought, from the way we host to the way we can connect to each other… We got to give everyone the possibility to decide which web they want to be part of, and federation definitely allows this!

Do you think a Proxy would be better in this regard compared to a firewall? I was trying to watch the logs of ufw today and see if I could do something there but the incoming and outgoing connections are A LOT, and I would essentially like to whitelist both per domain and per IP.

How much maintainance would this require? I wonder how often IPs change today, but with all the NAT, dynamic DNS and CDNs there around maintaining a whitelist only with IP addresses looks like a nightmare…

Squid proxy with squidguard could be a better option than trying to work with a forewall maybe?