Not quite (it’s newer) :3

I know :(

I don’t think I can change it though, silly firmware limitation.

I was more sympathising with the poster, but yeah that’s about it.

I’m not gonna engage mentally with anything from .ml since from experience it really isn’t worth it. Taking a wander on .ml was pretty much the most confusing thing I’ve ever experienced when I first tried out lemmy, I mean their ukraine community is all you need to see, really is kind of another level of closed off from reality. Either you’re out of the loop or you agree with them, but .ml being based around a (relatively) singular unquestioning belief system isn’t healthy.

Well yeah that’s lemmy.ml for you.

Admittedly don’t know any of the context and can’t argue on it, but the instance’s political stance is very whack (tankies).

A folder of music I couldn’t give less of a damn about apparently

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I don’t know if it’s unlucky or lucky, but a most girls will wear jeans where I live, which makes sense why I’ve only ever been she/her’d when wearing jeans. Unlucky because it’ll make wearing things like a skirt more awkward.

Also thanks <3

I’ll be sure to let you know when/if I do diy, thanks <3

Oh lol, then I guess it’s cool that helped you figure it out. I’ve been meaning to compliment someone at uni (they seemed nervous) but I missed the chance, I’ll be sure to do so when we start again in September.

About my hair, it’s naturally thick and curly, so I’m not sure if this will work for everyone, but it normally gets very frizzy if I don’t do anything with it, so my Mum taught me to use hair mousse, and I’ve settled on one of the strongest ones that Wella (the company) makes, other than that I don’t really take care of my hair as well as I could be, just that and re-doing it every 2-3 days to stop it from knotting. If you know Tony Statovci then mine is just his if it were shorter, although he ties his hair up a lot so you’ll have to see it when he has it down.

Thanks again I really appreciate all the support everyone is giving me. <3

I wonder if it’s more common for bi people to have less binary gender experiences?

Anyway thanks, I feel similar about my gender, it’s nice to hear from other people!

Very thick indeed, I think some cis people around me may have even figured it out before I did.

I’ll make sure to post updates when I make progress :3

Probably better DIY yeah, I’ll make sure to evaluate my options first though.

Thanks! <3

I will read up on HRT, and I’ll probably also ask some people who live in my area to know where I should get HRT from, since I know from experience the NHS can be very different depending on where you live.

Thanks! I’ll let you know if I need anything.

Some people can really just be mean. Compliments are usually more likely to go unsaid in my experience, I had one person berate me over my hair throughout my last year of secondary school, and never once had been complimented, 2 years of sixth form go by, the entire time thinking people hated my hair, only to hear second hand that someone in my class thought my hair was “beautiful” when being reminded of me, the person telling me this also agrees, and around the same time someone in the street wanted to know what hair product I was using. So safe to say people 100% think nice things about you all the time, but for whatever reason refrain from saying them.

Thank you.

Thanks!

I’m probably expecting the dysphoria to pick up as I keep going, I can’t leave the house any less than clean shaven any more. I’m excited to see how things go. Thank you!

I mean I say I’m genderfluid but the “fluid” of choice would probably be closer to tar, since while I can sometimes feel more masc, I’ve never once felt good about my masculine features, at the very best just mildly annoyed.

And yeah I can end up feeling really good under the right conditions. Since I’m lucky to have grown out my hair prior, I remember covering my face one time (in an attempt to hide certain facial features like my eyebrows), and tricking myself for only just a second, haven’t been able to re-do it but I literally felt it in my heart at the time.

Thank you for taking the time to reply, I really appreciate it! This has all been really affirming.

Thanks, I’ll have a look at those links.

For experimenting, not yet, my reasoning has been for people previously “mis”-gendering me as she/her occasionally, and I didn’t feel overly euphoric or anything, but then again from experience I know my brain likes to brush off anything less than definitive, since every time that happened they couldn’t see my face. I’ve also had 2 occasions where people have asked me if I’m a girl or a boy, the first one I found mildly amusing but it was a guy and they didn’t need me for anything so I could’ve just been weirded out by it, the other time was on the bus and two girls asked me, that time I can’t remember what I felt.

You’re right though I should probably ask my parents if they could mix it up a bit, but I’m scared it could make me feel weird about it, I know personally to myself I can sometimes feel comfortable seeing myself as a girl, but only really in isolation (the sun is up now and I’m already feeling a little bad), I do have a history of a social anxiety disorder so that could play a part in me feeling so weird about it. Although I did feel kind of good about adding my girl name alongside my birth name here and there.

I’ll absolutely keep posting updates though, and thank you again!