I only have a theory.

Most of society is not happy of what they have. Not like they want to be super rich, but to not be too poor to worry at the end of each month, if not daily. Being unhappy leads to anger. Anger may be profitable for the manipulator, it’s enough to point anyone to blame. And the manipulator gets profits after that. Steam vent off from anger, they helped, they good.

Someone to blame, it could be anyone, some minority. Someone unknown. Someone unable to fight back. Someone not essential to the society (of what society things*). We are perfect candidates. Next to migrants, outsiders, invaders to old system, As bonus, outsiders and invaders to the old are dangerous to the manipulator, so even better to get rid of them…

I’ve said we are not essential? are we? Many, even neutral, think so - they could live same without us, maybe even true?.. I’d say, we are the wind of change to the society, we do break chains of old systems… we do break one of oldest systems, binary genders, showing that old is not permanent (that’s one reason, some are afraid of us).

We win by existence.

Mtf (temporary) and fem (as goal) are not Your spaces? so? There’s lot other spaces on the spectrum! Honestly, there’s so many versions of enby, I never even tried to learn about them all, it’s crazy. Crazy in awesome way, so everyone can find, or even make own space, to feel, to live comfy with. Either finding the very best one, or throwing away every bad ones is a valid way of searching - You getting closer and closer to, or maybe You building that self. Hope You get lot’s of fun discovering that place, and super comfy spot at the end.

Some ways of being self, hrt affects our minds (emotioooooonnsssss) and/or bodies… Yes, it is not “and”, but sometimes may be “or”. I’m no expert, please don’t base on this! Afaik, T(masculine) hormone is the dominating one, if it is in our body, then E(fem) hormone barely can do anything to our bodies and E effects on our minds are also limited. That’s very shallow knowledge, slightly rumoured, but with some support, maybe there is a way that could satisfy You?

For the part of feeling bad among others. Being or not being this or that queer is only small part of ourselves. Far not enough to makes us like each other, while there’s 9569345432695 other aspects that may divide us. They are too young/old, they like the thing I don’t, their political view, coffee vs tea on the old town market square… Lil personal, I’ve decided to leave some trans communities of awesome peoples who helped me af, because of their politics that was unacceptable to me, listening and talking about daily. Unsure I should write that… don’t want to be bitching, maybe in a good faith as example? Even here on c/mtf, I often having mixed feelings, I’m jealous of success of so many beautiful peoples in front of me. One day, they gives me energy to do my own run, other day I’m downed that I won’t be alike, ever… Yeah, we are different on so many ways, one or few aspects unite us - being queers, non-cis, followers of Blahaj.

Third side, Your parents, possibly doc, gov office put You under this binary, amab label at start. You already know You’re not that amab. You already did move Your spot on the spectrum, from cis amab to anywhere else, with possibility of more moves in the future. By definition and all best wishes, that’s trans already. Sorry, not sorry. I call thee, do not be afraid of that, of the word. As earlier, that’s just one aspect of us and probably You’re not same, or maybe even similar to others (that would be boring).

Finally. Thank You for picking this trans space, forum, to bring Your topic. For Your trust in us.

<HUGSIES> Beautiful enby.

That one healthy photo of joy.

How about 691? or 197? or 1-six-seven? Feel free to use these ideas :)

That’s a loss for us all, every single one of such tragedy.

I did slightly clarification of what I meant by delaying. Much often, we still can do and do much relieves, every day, in the shadow. To helps selves with the delay.

Please exist.

Already made some bets. As he is Polish, and is/was military or paramilitary… in this country, only far righties goes army. Left ideology is quite against. So my bet, that was one of far right nazi fucks.
Also place of attack - most touristic spot in the country. (maybe not most, but top3 for sure).

No less, some far right media will do use that as fuel for attacks against centrist (soft right-center) gov. With how modern journalism work, and how extreme polarisation happens in politics, the tragedy will be used by everyone to push their povs (I’m pushing anti-farright propaganda here too).

[edit], not like I’m proud to have right to be correct…
> The perpetrator of the shooting in Krakow had very radical views, said Minister of Internal Affairs and Administration Marcin Kierwiński. „Everything indicates that he was fascinated by far-right ideologies”, he added.
far righter who defended “white Europe” from migrants, huh?

Sky is the snack.

Sovvy, I no longer fit that request >:3c
Here, a flower for Ya

What do I do if I wanna join the spin?

But it is that simple?

One moment You’re cis, some infodump happens and boom, You’re egg.

Another day You’re egg, some crack happens, and You’re another gender just moment later. Probably surrounded with tears or such, but the crack moment is shockly instant.

Half /s.

The long and slow process is what makes it all so valuable.

Also, we would die of mind orgasms, if we get to feel all first-time euphorias at the same time… first time hearing desired pronouns, picking name, first time feeling self, first hrt shock, first time many more, list goes on, (just trying to pick gender neutral first things, I may not know that much about transmascs, but bet, they have lots of euphorias too). Would Ya wanna get smashed by all that at once?.. (ok, yes, me too, me too!). Anyway, effort matters.

That’s some sign of possibilities. On itself, may not be enough, things happens, dreams mixes realities and perspectives. But that still was a sign, that it may be worthy checking, if You had some other moments in life, that could push You to some decisions? Anything from rpg character, fav toy as kid, common day clothes. If You find more, that may be beginning of big adventure…

Aye, could be beginning of big adventure… to where? genders is a big spectrum. swapping between both binary genders is a thing, but there may be lot other possibilities, agender, nonbinary, both 2spirit, fluid changes per a given moment.

GLHF on finding own gender, finding self.

one to You too!

Who cares my past, my agab, deadname and such. My goal is to be woman, just woman, girl, lady, miss, chick, bitchqueen, mistress… oh… We all are women (or uncracked eggs, not pushing anyone into anything).

Trans, is a path, not the destination.

*This still stand even for some nb and fluids and alike folks, swapping between old and new is the path, not the goal - be self is the goal.

I dare to counter the song; think the link would go this https://redirect.invidious.io/watch?v=SXVMDYBkGRA

always! <3

Thank You.

Much right moment for that… It will be fine. Great even. Just need to cry a little bit today before going full power next day.

I’m here. We win by existing.

Truth from my chest (teehee)… i used to be weekly/social drinker of beer, for long time. Since E becoming a thing to me… alcohol don’t taste good anymore. The choice is real, and I choose my chest (teehee).

But I do NEED 1000kg of epstein files… would even get few printers to reduce printing time.

Sometimes I hear some wolves over the forest hill… It was you all the time! >:3c