Stimulants in general. You kind of have to try what works best for you, but they were all pretty much doing what I described
Stimulants in general. You kind of have to try what works best for you, but they were all pretty much doing what I described
My main problem always was energy. Not wanting to go out, not wanting to work, sometimes literally not wanting to do anything. I still had motivation and ambitions though. The feeling of being unable to do what I really wanted, to live up to who my idea of who I wanted to be, made me feel like wasting all my potential.
The medicine gives me that extra kick in the butt energy wise and also lowers the barrier of “just doing it”. It makes everything you do just a little bit more rewarding, so that now my hobbies even have a chance to compete against the dopamine of video games and fast food.
All in all, now I feel like I actually use my potential. When I don’t do something I wanted to, mostly now it’s because of time, not energy. Also it really helped me in social situations by closing that sensory filter a bit, giving me some more runtime before I get exhausted.
What I don’t like: If I couldn’t live the life I wanted before the medicine, and now I can, what happens if I don’t take the medicine anymore? If it works as it’s supposed to, you build your life on top of that effect, so being dependent on it is kinda built in. I’ve already experienced times where the medicine wasn’t as effective, and suddenly my daily life seemed not stimulating enough anymore compared to my old habits.
I accept this trade off though, since it’s the first thing that ever let me live my life like I actually wanted to.
TBH getting medicine was kinda like that for me. It’s not a perfect solution ofc
Again, I agree with everything above, I also think Germany is doing the wrong thing. In your last paragraph you say exactly what was my argument: Germany acts like it has a debt to repay. I can say from the perspective of a German that that is exactly what everyone here feels like is expected of us. Eternal atonement. Repaying what cannot be repaid. This has never changed since Germany lost WWII.
You have to consider that Germanys position regarding international relations is unique. The allied states gave us back our freedom not under the condition of being friends with Israel, but essentially owing a debt. Nobody ever let us forget what would happen if we “got out of line” again.
That is not only true on the level of international politics, but also in everyday life. When you travel to the US, people will straight up ask about the Nazi-Autobahn or whether you are a Nazi yourself. In Poland, people just might be a bit more unfriendly to you because of what your country did to theirs. In many places of the world you can buy “history pieces”, from SS emblems to signed copies of “Mein Kampf”. The whole world still kind of thinks of the Nazis when they talk about Germany, and if its even just 1% of what they think, it’s still there. Like, no offense taken, but I don’t know about any other country in this position. Russia, the US, Great Britain, France, even Japan or Italy. I don’t think any of these countries’ citizens get asked uncomfortable questions about their countries past when on vacation. Their children do not grow up in the knowledge that they will have to bear the sins of their country, and put them on their children too.
So, Germany accepted this role, these expectations, and does its best to keep to that. Nobody here thinks it would be internationally accepted if we “emancipated” ourselves from this duty. I think many Germans want to, at least in my social bubble. But do you think we could, without any repercussions?
I think what we need is absolution, forgiveness, a new beginning with no strings attached. A real, equal friendship between Israel and Germany. Trust. Otherwise we will just stay paralyzed by our infinite moral debt. I don’t think this will happen in our lifetimes. Not with the current Israel, the current US, the current Germany.
TL;DR: I wanted to give an perspective on why Germanys position is kind of unique in this world. It is one of the biggest economies, a sovereign state, but still not free in decisions regarding Israel.
Oh I think in Germany it’s actually a huge problem that no one really feels like they are represented by anyone in the government, even the party they voted for. It’s the biggest reason the AFD is so popular: People wanted an alternative to the status quo, no matter what it is. Because they feel like “die da oben” (like “they up there”) have always decided against the interests of the average guy. So actually, mistrust in the government is the cause of the AFD, not its solution.
In my comment I was actually not even thinking about the politicians, just the “majority” as in more than 50% of people. Not the current majority in parliament or anything like that.
Germany actually has a pretty big protest culture, at least I see them so regularly that it’s a very normal part of public life.
But many people are either too content with their life to complain or even be interested in something else (you could also call it lazy and ignorant tbh), or they are so disillusioned that they don’t believe they could ever change something. It’s the same in most western countries to be fair.
I absolutely agree with you about what we should do in regards to Israel, and I think most people in Germany actually also do. But what would happen on the international floor if Germany suddenly started saying we should arrest Israel’s top politician, stop supporting their “defense”, and openly accuse them of genocide? It’s an honest question: Do you think we could? Without the whole world scolding us to not forget our history? I personally think Germany doesn’t even have the freedom of choice in this topic, no matter what we as a country think is right.
I don’t think we disagree on these points. I’ll reply to more of your arguments once I have the time, but for now the main question I was asking myself was: How can we at the same time do our duty to Isreal as remembrance of the Holocaust, and actively oppose what Israel does right now? We would have to cross the line, and actually say things that everyone says we shouldn’t because of our history. My personal view is that our debts are paid, and we should go back to just rationally follow international law again. But it’s not an easy situation for our politicians, because most of the world still expects us to essentially not do that. What do you think could be the solution? In my opinion, essentially Germany has to emancipate it from its “Urschuld”
What mentality do you mean? The obedience? I feel like it’s more nuanced than that. Yes, following the rules everyone agreed on is lived in a rather inflexible way. If you think about it though, that’s democracy. It’s a commitment to the compromise. The unwritten contract between the majority and the minority. We recognize that the moment you start thinking “I don’t like this law, so I won’t follow it”, democracy falls apart. People here want law and order even for laws they disagree with, because collectively that means that laws they agree with will also be followed by everyone.
There are limits though. While I agree that it’s scary to see the AFD become more and more popular, I disagree with your prediction. The idea of “never again” regarding the Holocaust guides every single part of public life. There are not many Germans who would say they are proud of their country. Only every two years, when Germany plays soccer in the international leagues, flying a German flag does not feel weird. Shame for your own country. That’s what Germans think everyone expects us to feel.
Strong military? We’re watching you. Your Great-Grandfather did what? Be sorry. Proud of Germany? How dare you.
The very first words of our constitution (“Human dignity is untouchable.”) are a testament to the Holocaust. It’s an incredibly well chosen sentence that every single law is measured against. We know the entire world expects us to uphold this principle forever.
I am not arguing against the danger for democracy that the AFD poses. It’s very real. But in Germany we even have a law to actually make parties illegal that are against the constitution, most importantly the first sentence of it.
So, if Germans are obedient to the law, and the most important principle of our law makes anything even close to the Holocaust illegal, isn’t obedience a good thing then? The real question is, would Germans decide to just accept unconstitutional laws, or rather insist on upholding the constitution? I think the huge protests in the past months have made clear that many people are already standing up for the constitution. Not because they just follow rules blindly, but because they actually believe in the principles of compromise, democracy and dignity.
Super cool! I’d be interested in how to fit this to my head shape too, it’s now on my list of contenders for the concert
Did anyone get this to run?
Oof I’m sorry, sounds super bad. It’s interesting because I think the frontal lobe is exactly what would make someone overthink stuff or worry too much. So, I’m still considering it ;)
Amazing, can you share where exactly I need to bonk my head for this?
I wanted to set this up for a while now. Guess it’s time
I’ve read about this method in the GitHub issues, but to me it seemed impractical to have different models just to change the context size, and that was the point I started looking for alternatives
It was multiple models, mainly 32-70B
There are many projects out there optimizing the speed significantly. Ollama is unbeaten in the convenience though
Yeah, but there are many open issues on GitHub related to these settings not working right. I’m using the API, and just couldn’t get it to work. I used a request to generate a json file, and it never generated one longer than about 500 lines. With the same model on vllm, it worked instantly and generated about 2000 lines
Über n Salamibrot geht halt nix
Yo I think we Path of Exile gamers made it pretty clear he is not one of us
Take a look at NVIDIA Project Digits. It’s supposed to release in May for 3k usd and will be kind of the only sensible way to host LLMs then:
There’s many cool options if you don’t prefer stimulants. Guanfacine came pretty close to ritalin for me. Atomoxetine is another option I didn’t try, and a few more you’d have to look up. Stimulants are no joke, and I am not without any side effects. For me the trade-off is worth it though. If you ever try them I can only suggest to speak to your doctor about starting with half the regular starting dose. It can be way too high for some people already, and there is no real harm in starting low as far as I could find out.