So, over the past year I have learnt so much about the amazing achievements these men (and the party they were the leaders of) did that I was never taught. I’ve ‘semi-intentionally’ deprogrammed myself of so much anti-communism bullshit while having to live with that most still in the West, based upon misinformation, view them as ‘evil, 100 quintillion deaths, dictator, psychopath where muh freedoms’.

The reason I am focusing on Stalin and Mao in particular in this post is, to be very open, due to a truth-seeking hyperfixation that I must satisfy so I can move on to the next topic of intense, dopamine chasing, obsession. Yeah I love being me. Anyway, propaganda, mythologising, exaggerating and misattributed blame brushed aside, what is left?

I am quite knowledgeable of, thanks to some high quality M-L documentaries, educational videos and podcast episodes, the more obvious wrongdoings such as the Great Leap Forward killing of pests worsening the famine, purges of comrades who were legitimately innocent, re-criminalising homosexuality, support of Khmer Rouge and ethnic deportations to name a few.

I wouldn’t mind hearing more obscure examples, or a deeper analysis of the mistakes and unjustifiable actions I am already aware of. And as much as a few good book recommendations probably would give me the answers I crave, I am lowkey illiterate with long-form reading thanks to my ADHD (still waiting on meds after being diagnosed 8 months ago).

  • ExistentialNightmare@lemmygrad.mlOP
    21·
    27 days ago

    I didn’t say all that and you need to acknowledge that you said you had mental illness not any disability. But, and I do mean this sincerely - I am sorry for being inconsiderate. I’ve deleted my previous reply for being childish.

    Also, I am highly autistic, I literally do lack empathy in the sense of not understanding other people properly and struggling to relate to them. I do feel other’s pain emotionally and deeply though if we mean empathy in that way, which is primarily why I’m apologising - I am upset that I have upset you. Infact I think this is part of the confusion, what do you mean exactly by empathy, in this particular context?

    I think opiumfree thought you lack logical, more conceptual empathy not literal emotional empathy.

    Also, I recommend watching RevThot’s video on the re-criminilisation of homosexuality in the USSR, link

    • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
      31·
      27 days ago

      Also, I recommend watching RevThot’s video on the re-criminilisation of homosexuality in the USSR

      That’s actually the video that shaped my opinion on this. The quote i posted was from the conclusion in this video.

      you need to acknowledge that you said you had mental illness not any disability.

      Is this a language or cultural difference? Because mental illness is a disability where i am from. Does your country not consider mental illnesses as disability?

      Or am i misunderstanding?

      Infact I think this is part of the confusion, what do you mean exactly by empathy, in this particular context?

      I explained it here already

      I have few problems with cognitive empathy and can rather easily see when it is needed. Emotional empathy is the problem for me as you already mentioned.

      An acquaintance of mine went homeless - shit sutuation, i was homeless too for a couple months - i technically could have offered my couch for him to sleep on.

      My overstimulated AuDHD ass was absolutely not gonna do that. I offered some money instead. I was already housing my GF in this small room. She also has autism, but i am more able than her so i pick up the slack and i am the one working. Adding some man to it as well would have ended me

      Now, you might say that you would have done the same, my point is that for me that is not comradely behaviour. That is not principled socialism.

      Sure he is a chinese anti-communist, but i could have been the change i want to see in his world. He found a place and i didn’t need to worry about it anymore, but my decision was still made and so was the decision to not label myself socialist.

      I take your apology to heart - Thank you. It is a good apology.

      Today was a stressful day on the grad. Good night.