I have Borderline Personality Disorder and it has not been particularly good existing so far. As far as therapy goes, in my district (in Kerala), I am trying to find a solid therapist trained in DBT. Shit is exhausting, are there any practical way of dealing with this that doesn’t involving forking over an obscene amount of money? I seem to have a lot of ADHD symptoms as well. Quite exhausting.
Adding fascist India shenanigans on top of it, I am really tired. Reading theory is helping and I understand that things are changeable but how do I not fall into doomerism? especially in a country where every month feels more fascistic than the last.
Any comrades with BPD or any other mental health struggles here? How do you cope?
I don’t know much about treatment, other than dbt and shadow work, but there are free dbt worksheets online. I had some bookmarked, I’ll look for them over the next few days.
Is it this one DBT Therapy Skills Workbook
I was planning to go through this one. I have seen someone mention it in lemmygrad.
Probably. A quick glance it seems very Western - centric and if you’re short on funds, it could mean you have to find alternatives for distraction.
BPD with A(u)DHD traits? That’s me! But then again – for women especially, though I was assigned male at birth – BPD is criminally overdiagnosed when the correct assessment should be neurodivergence. Because it’s easier for the doctor to call the woman “hysterical” than to actually address everything wrong with modern medicine, especially psychiatry, especially especially when it comes to women’s health.
DBT tended to gravitate towards a position of “this is how your brain is wrong, and here’s how you have to fix yourself” when, for me as a highly sensitive and emotional person, the distress the world made me feel as I grew older (my first symptoms of depression being from when I was like maybe 14?) is completely jutified and not fixable with shit-ass fucking SNRIs and other fucking poisons. Also I’m still salty with Finland’s national healthcare for fucking up my functioning therapy regiment back in the day, after which the state disagreed with both me and my doctor on my continued need of rehabilitation and told me to get a fucking job, bum.
That being said, some of the individual parts of DBT have helped me with my anxieties and tendencies of doomerism. https://dbt.tools/ seems like a nice, clean interface. Also the concept of dialectics helped with the coming class consciousness and diamat, so there’s that at least.
I used to cope with drugs and alcohol… Nowadays I just try to limit my intake of both (we just toke, and even that occasionally makes my emotional dysregulation flare up). Some days I just flat-out refuse to engage with the outside world if there’s too much happening. I’ve been out of most bourgeois social media for over a year now, mainly just lemmy for news/interaction and Youtube for slop. I also use .worlders and other lib/fash intance users to lash out, because I’d rather hurl abuse at pixels on my screen than actual people irl which I have been guilty of before. Though even that leaves me drained and my heart rate spiking, so I try to limit that also.
It ain’t easy out here. Good luck.
Staying off of bourgeoise social media, marxist theory, and staying away from my family (hindutva shite ಠ_ಠ) is what had helped me the most as of this point. I will check out the website, thank you for linking me.
I haven’t suffered with addiction thankfully, but I disassociate alot. And I just completely hole myself up in the room as well, for months. Occassionally figuring myself out of it, then minor inconvenience, then back again.
I identity as a man (AMAB as well), there was very little info I could actually find on male BPD, most of these resources just focus on dehumanizing women. Personality disorder discourse in general feels very murky.
i wish lemmygrad had a friend request function bc i would request u
I just tried to look up some books for this, and it is an absolute nightmare. “Literature” and workbooks on this subject seem to evaluate/address the patient in an intolerably condescending and frequently misogynistic way. I mean, the one I just read didn’t even use a male example in their prompt and it was all about boyfriends and getting into subcultures. Just kinda bumping in the meantime but that was more frustrating than most research areas, FYI.
The books and such I have checked seem to be insanely misogynistic. Barely anything about male BPD as well, and that is also what I particularly need examples for in my case. There isn’t any bit of humanity given to these examples either. Its frustrating. Isn’t this over diagnosed in women as well?
Thanks for the bump.
Yes, it does get overdiagnosed. Woman with CPTSD? Slap her with borderline. Neurodivergent traits that differ from the male standard presentation? Also borderline. While it is a legitimate disorder that requires psychiatric care, we cannot ignore how the way it is diagnosed harms women, perpetuates harmful gender stereotypes and stigmatizes female specific patterns of reacting to trauma. And outside of actual psychiatric practice, the general public absolutely treats it as the modern day version of hysterical woman syndrome and loves to armchair diagnose women who step out of line with it as a form of social control.
BPD with A(u)DHD traits? That’s me! But then again – for women especially, though I was assigned male at birth – BPD is criminally overdiagnosed when the correct assessment should be neurodivergence. Because it’s easier for the doctor to call the woman “hysterical” than to actually address everything wrong with modern medicine, especially psychiatry, especially especially when it comes to women’s health.
DBT tended to gravitate towards a position of “this is how your brain is wrong, and here’s how you have to fix yourself” when, for me as a highly sensitive and emotional person, the distress the world made me feel as I grew older (my first symptoms of depression being from when I was like maybe 14?) is completely jutified and not fixable with shit-ass fucking SNRIs and other fucking poisons. Also I’m still salty with Finland’s national healthcare for fucking up my functioning therapy regiment back in the day, after which the state disagreed with both me and my doctor on my continued need of rehabilitation and told me to get a fucking job, bum.
That being said, some of the individual parts of DBT have helped me with my anxieties and tendencies of doomerism. https://dbt.tools/ seems like a nice, clean interface. Also the concept of dialectics helped with the coming class consciousness and diamat, so there’s that at least.
I used to cope with drugs and alcohol… Nowadays I just try to limit my intake of both (we just toke, and even that occasionally makes my emotional dysregulation flare up). Some days I just flat-out refuse to engage with the outside world if there’s too much happening. I’ve been out of most bourgeois social media for over a year now, mainly just lemmy for news/interaction and Youtube for slop. I also use .worlders and other lib/fash intance users to lash out, because I’d rather hurl abuse at pixels on my screen than actual people irl which I have been guilty of before. Though even that leaves me drained and my heart rate spiking, so I try to limit that also.
It ain’t easy out here. Good luck.
