I’ve felt rancor and bitterness towards most of my surroundings for all of recent memory and have now realized that it’s starting to affect my relationship (im growing impatient, ready to fly off the handle, a little defensive) and i feel like im in some way broken or “unfit” for a relationship. Very important to mention that i forgot to take my meds for an extended period and now they are virtuslly useless bbecause im a dimwit and am unable to properly remind myself of my fairly important emotional stability pills; This lack of pharmaceutical support (all a byproduct of my own actions) i think also plays a very big role in my current situation.
How do i not lash out or ruin my relationship with my partner because of my general unhappiness and, for lack of a better term, hate for and towards everyone else around me
I find that you have to have some outlet where you are able to just get lost in that thing. I don’t look at the pursuit of happiness of something you focus on, but the resisting of unhappiness being something that you improve by doing things that you don’t exactly focus on but your mind gets lost doing them, this doens’t mean your mind is not working, its similar to a flow state, your mind feels at ease even if the task is challenging or just something simple as talking a walk in nature.