I’ve felt rancor and bitterness towards most of my surroundings for all of recent memory and have now realized that it’s starting to affect my relationship (im growing impatient, ready to fly off the handle, a little defensive) and i feel like im in some way broken or “unfit” for a relationship. Very important to mention that i forgot to take my meds for an extended period and now they are virtuslly useless bbecause im a dimwit and am unable to properly remind myself of my fairly important emotional stability pills; This lack of pharmaceutical support (all a byproduct of my own actions) i think also plays a very big role in my current situation.

How do i not lash out or ruin my relationship with my partner because of my general unhappiness and, for lack of a better term, hate for and towards everyone else around me

  • KRat@lemmygrad.mlOP
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    4 days ago

    during covid i felt like this: i am unsure as to how i could help you, since i dont remember how i actually managed to get out of it.

    I think that it’s good that you still in some way force yourself to do things like going out with friends, but the problem could be a chemical imbalance and (if you have the resources: aka dont live in the us) i suggest seeking professional help. Meds can really help alot, but you’ll have to give them time to act. They unfortunately take a fairly long time to actually have a noticeable effect

    • DonLongSchlong@lemmygrad.ml
      6·
      4 days ago

      I am in the netherlands and have had professional help, but they couldn’t figure it out either and eventually we dropped the case with no further instructions.

      I am, however, taking bupropion and that has helped somewhat and stimulants for my ADHD which help greatly for doing things even if my mind is not motivated.

      I have had this problem for at least a decade though and maybe even since birth, so i am unsure if i can be helped.

      Glad you were able to get out of that hole though.

        • Maeve @lemmygrad.ml
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          3 days ago

          ❤️ I see my comrades having struggles and encouraging others who also struggle. This is incredibly encouraging and heart warming. Thank you, Comrade.