Hi everybody!
I’d originally planned on having a big effort post, but I’ve had some Bad BrainTM the last couple weeks so that’ll just have to wait until next time.
In the meantime, it’s my 2 year HRT Anniversary! These past couple years have also been the first time I’ve really been in community with other trans folx; I’ve had so many breakthroughs and discoveries of myself that I don’t think would have been possible without that and I can’t be thankful enough.
I hope everybody has a lovely week!
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what’s the name of that one trope where a masked, mysterious character who doesn’t say anything, usually an antagonist or someone who saves the protagonist for unknown reasons, gets gendered as male for like a whole season but then has a dramatic reveal where they remove their helmet and it turns out they were a GIRL ALL ALONG??? 😱😱😱
idk what that trop is called but that’s my gender
When you’ve already low key complained to all your complaining options but the issue is still there and you still wanna complain about it but you’d have to repeat the same thing to the same people who’d probably just be slowly getting more annoyed with your complaining and if complaining the first time didn’t do anything why would doing it more help but you’re still a complainer deep down so you still want to even if you know it’s useless and you just get continually more annoyed at your stupid self for not only the initial problem but also this insatiable need to complain and be a miserable bitch the entire time too
I’ve complained to all my little groups about [problem] but it persists as does my desire to complain about it. Why 😭
Do you write in a diary? I find that helpful for when I need to complain and I’ve exhausted my options, also writing in a diary is just helpful in general.
- You didn’t solve the problem so ofc you still want to complain about it
- Rotate your complaints to make them fresher
- Add humour or some extra touch to make the complaints more entertaining and also to exercise your creative muscles
This advice is as serious as you want it to be.
Also,
. I don’t know what exactly you’re suffering from right now but you can tell me about it, I won’t get bored. Promise.
oof I feel terrible
me too…
It’ll get better, we’ll win, I’m sure of it
Good night everybody!
Google very blatantly scans my pictures, it creates groups like different people, food, pets, etc. But it doesn’t make the text searchable!! Ripping the text would be super easy, could even be done on device, but its still not scanned/searchable and its my biggest issue with their gallery app. I just wanna be able to search for memes/screenshots!
Back on the progchamp as of today!! 200mg this time, wondering if I’ll see more of an effect on either libido or booba size…
Also I want to start being more intentional about diet and exercise so I can be hot! Tips for getting a fatter ass and hips are appreciated
Cw: Depression
I’ve been uncontrollably depressed since yesterday, because of my mom. But I managed to perk up a little after getting on call with friends. I still want to move out of here asap, but I still can’t, really. This SUCKS. Maybe I should try moving in with my sister, but idk if it would be good.
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Maybe you can bring the idea up with your sister. If staying is that bad, you should seriously consider moving out*. It makes a big difference.
*(not onto the streets obv)
Well, she’s very cool and I’m out to her so it could be good. But it wouldn’t move me far, so it does not solve as much. I kinda want to go to a very far away place so that no one in my extended family will ever see me again, but I could have fem clothing and order stuff online much more easily.
I want a beautiful nice lady to take care of me and treat me like a treasured possession or pet :((((
want to be wanted so bad that they’d exert that level of control over me if they had the opportunity
medical crap
had a cardiologist appointment yesterday, he told me that on the old diagnostic criteria i wouldn’t have been diagnosed with ADHD because i made it through school and university. he also kinda implied that it’s childhood trauma instead which i think was his attempt to get me to stop taking stimulants. strange thing for a cardiologist to focus on. even considering stimulants’ effect on increased HR, i still had tachycardia symptoms before taking them
and like, gender dysphoria wasn’t a thing on the DSM-IV. neither was a cormordid autism/ADHD diagnosis. why tf would you bring up outdated criteria in the first place, is it not outdated for a reason?
also to add, the last cardiologist i saw didn’t do any of that shit. he just asked “are the meds helping? cool, i won’t try to take them from you then.” ts is so frustrating
Breaking a bad habit is like “ah almost slipped” but then it’s like wtf else am I supposed to do with my time then
I ran out of brain juice to read, it’s too hot to walk around and I can’t just go to sleep rn.You’re never out of enough brain juice to read slop novels. Hell, pick up a BL manhua or donghua. I might even recomend sapphire and berryl which is an animated Chinese soft-BL with very short episodic plots.
This might be what I need to recharge tbh I think it was mostly the heat getting to me but sapphire and berryl I’ll look into this
Yippie! I did my run! I no longer need to be executed but you can still try
cw:wierd horny
They wouldn’t be able to execute me cause I’d keep cumming on the way
[cw:preg]
Modern technology is a marvel. I yearn to get pregnant and have a cute baby to hold and breastfeed
. Technologically possible for me to achieve. Sociologically a bit tough still 
…You can read the above words and laugh at this silly girl who still has thoughts of “what if I’m cis and this is all a mistake?”
I feel you on this I do truly want the same
I get it. Even if I were with woman partner, I’d still love to have a child. Funnily enough, I don’t care for the genetics. I just want to go through the experience.
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Yeah I’m a basic b*tch. All my gender affirmations come from unseasoned binary gender roles. Well except for my dream of ritualised scissoring with a t-girl. I don’t think that’s very hetslop of me.
Same the genetics don’t matter that much for me but it would be so cool if we could create eggs from stem cells! I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get pregnant, but I think breastfeeding a baby is definitely in the cards if I put the effort in. Sometimes I consider adopting in the far future, have you considered it?
All I have is some fantasies. Adoption is not something I can think about when I have trouble thinking about staying alive tommorow.
I feel ya, I might be a bit too optimistic on the adoption bit for myself.
Finally I decided to write down that book with pictures I been sitting on. I really wanted to do contemporary realism, but that’s honestly out of the question due to censorship.
Instead I will be drawing a silly trans furry book with lots of pictures that will be brushed off as joke. Sadly it does mean that people who weren’t fortunate enough to develop literacy skills will likely be unable to parse it :/ Although I’ll try my best.
most neurotic person i know told me “oh my god, you’re so neurotic” jokingly, it may be over
