I always feel really wierd, class wise…

Like…I’m not super poor. Obviously I have internet, a house, electronics, and I don’t have to work part time to afford college (with scholarships)

But…sometimes I feel really poor too. But I can never tell what poor I am. Like, I have a friend who is transferring and he was talking about how his parents will be paying A TON more in tuition than i am.

And ive talked about it before where last year I felt really, really ashamed about my mom not having an important job like everyone else in the class (She works as a laborer while everyone else had parents who worked as lawyers or dentists or upper managers, etc.) And like…logically I shouldn’t, i know that. I don’t think anyone else cared either, but for some reason having to say that just made me feel really ashamed for some reason.

I think I just feel like I don’t fit in either world. I’m too “artsy” (for lack of a better term) and effeminate and privileged to really feel working class, but too limited and stressed to feel super privileged either.

I’m not asking for a ton of sympathy, i just wanted to get these thoughts out, because my emotions are involuntary so i wanna know why I have them