So long story short I started smoking when I was in my mid-twenties and did it for about 10 years. It wasn’t until recently I switched over to vaping in a vain attempt to quit smoking. Well, it worked, I quit smoking but became totally addicted to vaping instead.

It’s so difficult to kick compared to drinking. Alcohol would make me have terrible hangovers and I’d binge so there’d be weeks at a time I’d lose to being drunk. Compared to smoking it’s nefarious, with cigs I could only smoke outside and there was only 20 to a pack, so I’d have to space it out and plan my breaks around smoking a cig.

Vaping on the other hand, you can do anytime anywhere (mostly). I’d just sit at the computer all day vaping. I even stopped playing games (my passion) just to sit and vape and disassociate.

Anyway I’m trying, again, to quit. I tried yesterday but I ended up fishing out a burnt vape from the trash and took a bunch of hits that made me gag.

So I came to a realization of sorts, my ass is fishing through nasty garbage and putting that to my mouth to get a nicotine fix. Look at how far my ass has fallen sadness

I’ll update this post when I hit the 6 hour mark. God help me.

  • largerfather [he/him]@hexbear.net
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    5 days ago

    when quitting something it’s easy to get stuck in the “this sucks” or “i’m bored” mindset. sure, that’s part of it, but be sure to appraise the good aspects. “i’m not coughing as much”; “i’m saving money”; “i’m less anxious.”

    change “it’s only been 6 hours” to “i’m almost through day one. nice”