I was with my grandma a lot, today. It was fun! I love my grandma.

She made food for us; I had fried salmon and she had turkey meatballs with pasta and a salad. We had french toast for dessert. Well, I did, anyway, she had apple pie I think.

We talked a lot, which I appreciated. The conversation itself was maybe a little more contentious than I’d hoped, but it was still good. It feels good to connect with her, on any level. We have a lot of shared concerns, even if we’re two generations apart.

Bought a book for my mom, too. Mother’s day is coming up - it’s this Sunday - so my brother and I decided to buy her a book she’s been meaning to read.

I didn’t write too much today, but I did get greatly frustrated by the horrendous paper quality of my notebook. It’s so bad. The paper rips so easily and it’s so transparent, it’s nearly see-through!

I’ve also been a little upset at my own handwriting. Some letters and some words look really good, sometimes, but some capital letters in particular look so horrible! I’m also rather inconsistent. It’s so very frustrating… I guess it’s one of those things that I’ll never be truly satisfied with; it’s not good to chase perfection, because we will never achieve it. Still, I can see just how much I have to improve that it feels rather daunting. At least now I have a great pencil to improve with!

Last night, during my nightly shower, I thought about starting a YT channel where I detail the things I do to improve myself. I think it’d be cool, and it might provide some motivation for me to keep at it. I think it might be too much work, though, and not actually help that much with consistency. I already have this habit of posting, so I guess that personal niche is already filled.

Today, I felt like eating lots of stuff. Yet, I didn’t. I ate a normal and adequate amount of food, and a normal and adequate distribution of macro-nutrients, as well! Happy about that. I walked quite a bit too, which is good. I’m gonna go for a late night walk with my little brother, soon, so that’s gonna be great and add to my daily step count. I really need to get into more music, though, since he’s gonna go back home for a week, which means our conversations will cease! Music shall fill the void, during the walks. I hope so, anyway. Maybe a podcast could be good too, I’ve been looking to get back into The Magnus Protocol. That could be interesting.

I re-read that poetry section from Orpheu. It’s called “Poems,” by Ronald de Carvalho, by the way. I mean, look, it’s OK. I don’t like it very much, it’s confusing and I don’t really get it. I also don’t like the repetitive nature of some poems, like “Reflexes” - the last one - and “Nightly Lamp.” I also feel like some rhymes are forced and weak. It’s just much worse than the previous section, in my opinion. I might delve into it more in another post, but that’s what I have for now.

The next section is by Fernando Pessoa, but it’s not a poem. I think it’s a play called “The Sailor.” Cool! I’ll read it tonight, hopefully. It’s not too long.