Adhd is kicking my ASS right now. I’ve managed to read more than I usually would but I have no idea what I’m gonna write for my essay due on Saturday, and nothing is coming to me. My perception of time is that if something is far away (ie more than two days) then I have loads of time to do it, so I can take my time. Then I end up not doing it because I have loads of time, something due in ten days is ages away, I can do something over ten days. Then the next day I think “well nine days is a lot of time”, and I still don’t start, and so on.

I’ve been getting a lot out of therapy recently. My therapist is taking a break for a month so I’ll see how this goes.

My weed consumption has dropped at least. I was high four days this week, which is a lot, but I’m cutting down from being high every day for weeks at a time. I’ve gotta learn to be sober again. I don’t even enjoy being high or want to get high sometimes, and often I immediately regret taking a gummy, but addiction is a pain in the ass.