i’m harvesting a great crop of jelly beans today
it’s my birthday this week and you have to post a lot okay? :^)
Join our public Matrix server!
https://matrix.to//#/#tracha-space:transfem.dev
https://rentry.co/tracha#tracha-rooms
As a reminder, please do not discuss current struggle sessions in the mega. We want this to be a little oasis for all of us and the best way to do that is not to feed into existing conflict on the site.
Also, be sure to properly give content warnings and put sensitive subjects behind proper spoiler tags. It’s for the mental health of not just your comrades, but yourself as well.
Here is a screenshot of where to find the spoiler button.
___
The convo started talking about the shame I feel while stuck as a guy because of how it differentiates me from women and the fact that as long as I look/am perceived this way some people will always, always see me as a threat in a way I can never allay. Since femininity isn’t entangled with that I view it as better.
I don’t see it as too much of a problem myself, but I guess the worry is that I’m pursuing femininity as a reaction to masculinity (or how it’s perceived) rather than in it’s own merit
I mean it’s kind of hard to fully separate two things in a dialectical relationship like that.
乁[ ◕ ᴥ ◕ ]ㄏ I guess. But the concern would be if I just end up replacing that shame post-transition with a feminine counterpart. I don’t really know what that would be though, the shame I have now feels so masculine coded I can’t even imagine the alternative