I went to church today for the first time in a few years (I may have attended other Easters, I don’t remember) and I was not exactly impressed. I started noticing the hypocrisy more and more. And I know Christians are fond of the whole “Seeing hypocrites at a church is like seeing out-of-shape people at a gym,” but it’s more like meeting your new personal trainer, and they’re really unhealthy, however that looks for them. There’s one member who if there’s an -ism or -phobia associated with it, he’s on the wrong side of it. Yeah, they went and made him a deacon. They all just pick and choose which bits of scripture are literal and which are just metaphorical. Like helping the poor? Well, they mean the poor in spirit, which means I just have to spread Jesus, not actually materially help them. And there’s no idea that the concept of capitalism as we know it was not even conceived of during the time of the Biblical stories. Or a good chunk of the church’s history. They’re worshipping a god they made up that is only tangentially related to the Bible. I almost wish I could go back to not seeing this, but that is no longer an option. It’s just sad becoming disillusioned with something that was a huge part of my life for so long.