This whole week has been nothing but me being ignored and nobody even acknowledging my existence. On Tuesday, I went to a social event for a community I often go to, and that was a complete bust. People just spoke with their small groups and weren’t open to outside people and didn’t mingle. OK, so the next day, I went to my dance class/social. Nobody really even acknowledged me, I saw everyone ignore me. Group conversations without me.

Today, I was supposed to go to the Art Museum with a friend. She was making it up to me after a miscommunication during a recent planned group thing at a new place, in which I didn’t get the right plan, leaving me alone, waiting for the group for almost an hour, which never showed up. She wanted to make it up to me, but then today, she told me that she’s canceling it because she isn’t in a good place emotionally. But she didn’t say anything more about that, and didn’t even offer any alternate dates. Then by the time I went to another dance thing tonight, I was far too down from everything that happened to even have any real interactions with anyone.

Does anyone actually care about me? I think that if I were to suddenly die in my apartment, nobody would notice. Nobody would check on me, so nobody would notice until the police are called to evict me for not paying rent. And even then, none of my friends or groups would know unless someone just reads the obituaries for some reason.