Suicide

“Aquamarine”

Catch my soul sheen, it shines aquamarine.
Heat up the sea, turn to the color I ought to be
Burning away my anxiety. Time to be free.
Burnt on the edges, like it has to be.

I turn to emerald, that has a cost.
I neglected a dear friend, that’s a cost.
Tortured inside for years, that’s a lot.
Avoiding the truth, that’s the cause.
Diving into other worlds, that’s the gauze.
Hiding my feelings, that’s a loss.
Old ways to think, deserve to get tossed.

Old ways served no purpose, when I
Never looked up.
My eyes looked back and looked low, when I
Always felt stuck.
My mind was made up, no hope, when I
Knew I would die.
Convinced my heart ”no more”, when I
Wanted suicide.

I imagined a world without my love present.
Something I had hidden away, had forgotten.
I imagined the present world, without my friend in it.
They wanted me to fight, put my heart in it.

Now my eyes shine with celestial glint.
Astral projecting my signs far, no stint.
Playing hop-scotch, star to star, always commit.
Sliding across asteroid belts, can’t resist.
Leading the way to sol-center, sunlit.
Taurus and Aquarius close behind, full sprint.

We’re going to break the sky, rearrange the stars.
Tell new stories, new lessons, we have to go far.
Words are being diminished, fuck the par.
Stand on your words, even if it means new scars.
Our words mean everything, raise the bar.

We’re soaring back to Earth now.
Emerald souls burning with verdant fire.
We have new knowledge, new wisdom and the fire to use it.
Fighting the burning of words with righteous ire.

New ways serve my purpose, when I
Find a new question
My eyes seek justice and truth, when I
Find courage to speak
My mind was made up, all hope, when I
Knew I loved all
Convince my heart “Everything!” when I
Smile

Healed on the inside, like it wants to be
Absorb all the light. Time is back with me
Calm the sea, be the beautiful color I ought to be
Watch my soul sheen, it shines aquamarine.