Slept most of yesterday, and last night. I must have needed it. Still feel foggy and gross, but I get what I deserve, drinking as much wine as I did, at my age.
The cat slept on the bed with us. So lovely when he snuggles between us, because he wants kisses from both, not just one lol.
Have an in-person interview tomorrow, and a video one to record as well. I’m anxious (depressed? cptsd flare? It’s all connected, man) but I know I’m experienced and smart. The only thing holding me back is the
(shitty words from parent & ex, slapped under spoiler bc i dont want to trigger anyone else)
voice of my mum and my ex saying I’ll never be good enough
. Not sure why I believe it, when I’ve proven it wrong many times, but I just have to ignore it if I’m going to get anywhere.
Sorry for the arvo trauma-dump. Feeling anxious and wayyy too talkative ugh. Self-awareness can be such a bitch; ignorance is bliss, in a way.
Slept most of yesterday, and last night. I must have needed it. Still feel foggy and gross, but I get what I deserve, drinking as much wine as I did, at my age.
The cat slept on the bed with us. So lovely when he snuggles between us, because he wants kisses from both, not just one lol.
Have an in-person interview tomorrow, and a video one to record as well. I’m anxious (depressed? cptsd flare? It’s all connected, man) but I know I’m experienced and smart. The only thing holding me back is the
(shitty words from parent & ex, slapped under spoiler bc i dont want to trigger anyone else)
voice of my mum and my ex saying I’ll never be good enough
. Not sure why I believe it, when I’ve proven it wrong many times, but I just have to ignore it if I’m going to get anywhere.
Sorry for the arvo trauma-dump. Feeling anxious and wayyy too talkative ugh. Self-awareness can be such a bitch; ignorance is bliss, in a way.