I saw my best friend last weekend, it’s been a month, for the 3rd time now. I had a wonderful time…I cried on the ride back home. Being alone all the time, save for work, has taken its toll on my mental health. My son is upset with me; typical teenager stuff. What hurts the most right now is him ignoring my calls and texts. I’m just so alone, no end in sight. I look to the side of the couch where he would be sitting, and cry because he doesn’t want to see me. It’s becoming difficult trying to pretend I’m ok.

TL;DR: Shit sucks.

Been unemployed and in tremendous pain for several months, lost my insurance, can’t afford my meds, medical marijuana card expired so my insomnia and sleep paralysis are back, as are all my neurological ailments like waking up with no feeling in my legs and an intense crawling tingle in my spine. That all pales in comparison to the shitstorm in my brain. I just want to sleep but at this point it’s worse than being sleep deprived. Honestly considering crawling out to the woods and feeding myself to the local bears

They increased my lamictal and I’m having bad side effects. Can’t sleep and today is the clumsyness, I can’t walk steady. Interview at 3, I gota rest and hope it wears off soon.